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[yourhatred]

[Itachi doesn't get drunk, not in any way that shows, anyhow. He's the sort of stoic, no-nonsense individual who never appears to be affected by anything, even when he is.

He hardly looks it now, as he makes his way back to his apartment, but the ever so slight unevenness in his footsteps might be a giveaway to some.

Once he's home, he opens up his journal and just stares at the pages for a while before speaking.]

Not everyone deserves a second opportunity. What right do the Malnosso have to say who does?

((ooc: Feel free to catch him on his way home.))

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[screwthegods]

They have absolutely no "right." What they possess is the power, and that is enough of a reason for most to act in whatever manner they please.

[yourhatred.livejournal.com]

So I've seen in the past. It shouldn't surprise me now.

[screwthegods]

So it shouldn't. Yet existence in this place can be exceptionally difficult for those who had resigned themselves to death--or so it's been in my experience.

[yourhatred.livejournal.com]

Hn... [He's said too much, he knows, and there's nothing he can really take back at this point.]

[screwthegods]

[No, but Homura is still learning to read Itachi. It's only the wording and the shared experience that has given him this much insight into the man.]

Why do you think you're undeserving?

[yourhatred.livejournal.com]

[Itachi sighs tiredly.]

...That is... not something I wish to discuss.

[screwthegods]

If that is what you wish, then clearly I can't force you.

But I haven't forgotten what it's like to have death as my only hope, or to live without purpose.

[filtered]

[yourhatred.livejournal.com]

[Itachi takes a moment to lock the post.]

I'm not in the best of mindsets right now, nor do I have any desire to bare my soul.

If your situation is similar to mine then... you do not have my sympathies, but I understand your interest.

Re: [filtered]

[screwthegods]

What good would sympathy do? It doesn't provide answers for what either of us is seeking.

You don't need to reveal yourself to me. You're alive, and that means you are searching for a purpose to that existence. Without that meaning, life is no different from death, save that it must be continually endured--and in that, it is worse.

The Malnosso have forced you into this life, but youare the only one to decide what you will do with it. Whether you hate them for it or despair at the reality, this is the truth, and salvation.

[filtered]

[yourhatred.livejournal.com]

...

[There's silence on Itachi's end for a few long moments.]

I have... realized this, I think. I have realized it but not yet fully acknowledged it.

Part of me is still selfish.